Sivilay "Bruce" Sengkeophainh

NOVEMBER 24, 2006

 

ONE MORE THANKSGIVING WITHOUT YOU HERE. IT STILL SEEMS LIKE YOU ARE NOT GONE.

OH HOW I WISH IT WERE TRUE.  I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

THERE ARE SO MANY GOOD MEMORIES THAT I HAVE OF ME AND BRUCE TOGETHER.

HE USED TO JUMP OUT AND SCARE ME ALL THE TIME, AND LAUGH HIS ASS OFF. SO I DECIDED I WAS GONNA START GETTING HIM BACK. SO I STARTED WAITING ON HIM AROUND THE CORNER IN THE KITCHEN OR Y THE FRONT DOOR WHEN HE WOULD COME IN THE HOUSE, AND I WOULD JUMP OUT AND SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF HIM. HE NEVER GOT MAD WHICH WAS SURPISING, BECAUSE I DID IT ALL THE TIME. BUT HE NEVER GOT MAD ABOUT ANYTHING THAT I EVER DID.

 

" EVERYTHING I OWN "   BY: BREAD

YOU SHELTERED ME FROM HARM.
KEPT ME WARM, KEPT ME WARM
YOU GAVE MY LIFE TO ME SET ME FREE,
SET ME FREE.

THE FINEST YEARS I EVER KNEW
WERE ALL THE YEARS I HAD WITH YOU.
I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING I OWN,
GIVE UP MY LIFE, MY HEART, MY HOME.

I WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING I OWN,
JUST TO HAVE YOU BACK AGAIN.
YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO LOVE,
WHAT ITS OF, WHAT ITS OF.

YOU NEVER SAID TOO MUCH,
BUT STILL YOU SHOWED THE WAY,
AND I KNEW FROM WATCHING YOU.
NOBODY ELSE COULD EVER KNOW,
THE PART OF ME THAT CAN'T LET GO.

I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING I OWN,
GIVE UP MY LIFE, MY HEART, MY HOME.
I WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING
I OWN JUST TO HAVE YOU BACK AGAIN.
IS THERE SOMEONE YOU KNOW,
YOU'RE LOVING THEM SO,
BUT DON'T TAKING THEM ALL FOR GRANTED.

YOU MAY LOSE THEM ONE DAY,
SOMEONE TAKES THEM AWAY,
AND THEY DON'T HEAR THE WORDS YOU
LONG TO SAY, I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING I OWN,
GIVE UP MY LIFE, MY HEART, MY HOME.

I WOULD GIVE EVERYTHING I OWN JUST TO HAVE YOU BACK AGAIN.

THERE ARE SO MANY MEMORIES THAT I HAVE OF BRUCE, AND SO MANY OF THOSE POP UP IN MY MIND ON ODD OCCASIONS. I CAN BE AT THE GROCERY STORE AND SOME FUNY THING THAT HE DID JUST JUMPS INTO MY MIND AND I WILL START LAUGHING ABOUT IT.

BRUCE WAS SO SILLY AND GOOFY, JUST THE SAME AS I WAS. I USED TO TELL BRUCE AS STUPID AS YOU ACT AND AS STUPID AS I ACT OUR KIDS DON'T HAVE A CHANCE, THEY ARE GONNA ACT JUST LIKE US.....AND THEY DO.....

I CAN SEE SO MUCH OF BRUCE IN EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THESE KIDS. THEY  HAVE DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES, BUT THEY ARE VERY SIMILAR TOO.

I REMEMBER WHEN BRANDON WAS ABOUT 2 1/2 YEARS OLD BRUCE AND I HAD TAKEN HIM TO A CHINESE RESTAURANT TO EAT, I REALLY DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO FEED HIM, BECAUSE HE WAS A PICKY EATER. SO WE GOT SEVERAL THINGS FOR HIM TO TRY.

I CUT OPEN AN EGGROLL AND TRIED TO FEED HIM THE STUFF INSIDE, AND HE LOOKED AT IT, AND SAID I AM NOT EATING THAT IT IS GRASS!!!!!! I TRIED TO TELL HIM IT WAS VEGETABLES, BUT HE WAS NOT GOING TO EAT IT.....HE WAS TALKING VERY LOUD (AS ANY CHILD DOES) AND STARTED SAYING I AM GOING TO TELL GRANDMA THAT YOU TRIED TO MAKE ME EAT GRASS.

SO WE HAD HIM TRY SOME OTHER THINGS UNTIL HE FOUND WHAT HE LIKED. BUT HE HAS SINCE STARTED EATING EGGROLLS. HE LOVES THEM NOW....

WELL TODAY PHET OPENED UP HIS RESTAURANT, IT IS A VERY NICE PLACE, AND VERY BUSY.

EVERYBODY WAS THERE PHET, XAI, LAT & DAO.EVERYBODY WAS THERE TO HELP OUT WITH ALL THE COOKING.  EVERYBODY EXCEPT FOR BRUCE. I WAS SO HAPPY FOR PHET THAT HE FINALLY GOT THIS RESTAURANT OFF THE GROUND. I WISH BRUCE COULD HAVE BEEN HERE, I KNOW HE WOULD HAVE VERY PROUD AND EXCITED FOR HIS BROTHER. IT ALSO BROUGHT SO MANY EMOTIONS ALSO. BRUCE WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE HELPING OUT ALSO. HE LOVED HIS FAMILY SO MUCH AND WOULD HAVE DONE ANYTHING FOR THEM.

I WANTED TO PUT UP THE LYRICS TO THIS SONG IT SAYS ALOT. IT HAS BEEN SONG BY MANY DIFFERENT PEOPLE LIKE PHIL COLLINS, USHER AND KENNY LOGGINS.



"YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART"

COME STOP YOUR CRYING
IT WILL BE ALRIGHT.
JUST TAKE MY HAND, HOLD IT TIGHT.

I WILL PROTECT YOU

FROM ALL AROUND YOU

I WILL BE HERE

DON'T YOU CRY.

FOR ONE SO SMALL,

YOU SEEM SO STRONG

MY ARMS WILL HOLD YOU,

KEEP YOU SAFE AND WARM

THIS BOND BETWEEN US

CAN'T BE BROKEN

I WILL BE HERE

DON'T YOU CRY.

'CAUSE YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

YES, YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

FROM THIS DAY ON

NOW AND FOREVER MORE.

YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY

YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART, ALWAYS.

WHY CAN'T THEY UNDERSTAND

THE WASY WE FEEL

THEY JUST DON'T TRUST

WHAT THEY CAN'T EXPLAIN

I KNOW WE'RE DIFFERENT BUT,

DEEP INSIDE US

WE'RE NOT THAT DIFFERENT AT ALL.

AND YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

YES, YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

FROM THIS DAY ON

NOW AND FOEVER MORE.

DON'T LISTEN TO THEM

'CAUSE WHAT DO THEY KNOW

WE NEED EACH OTHER,

TO HAVE, TO HOLD

THEY'LL SEE IN TIME

I KNOW.

WHEN DESTINY CALLS YOU

YOU MUST BE STRONG

I MAY NOT BE WITH YOU

BUT YOU'VE GOT TO HOLD ON

THEY'LL SEE IN TIME

I KNOW

WE'LL SHOW THEM TOGETHER.

'CASUE YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

YES, YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART FROM THIS DAY ON,

NOW AND FOREVER MORE.

OH, YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART

NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY

YOU'LL BE IN MY HEART, ALWAYS

ALWAYS


I WAS FEELING VERY DOWN AND THINKING OF BRUCE WHEN THIS SONG CAME ON THE RADIO TODAY.

WELL TODAY WOULD HAVE BEEN YOUR 36th BIRTHDAY....

 I MADE A WISH FOR YOU AND BLEW OUT THE CANDLES. I WISHED THAT ALL THE KIDS WOULD GROW UP AND ACCOMPLISH EVERY DREAM YOU EVER HAD FOR THEM. I HOPE THEY CONTINUE TO MAKE YOU THE PROUDEST DAD.

WHILE THINKING ABOUT THE WISH I WOULD LOVED TO HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GET MY WISHES GRANTED, I WOULD GIVE AWAY ANYTHING TO HAVE YOU BACK (EXCEPT FOR THE KIDS).

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRUCE........WE LOVE YOU......

ALTHOUGH THE OUTCOME WAS NOT WHAT I WOULD HAVE PREFEERED TO HEAR I AM O.K. WITH THE SENTENCE THAT THIS GIRL RECEIVED FOR TAKING THE LIFE OF SUCH A GOOD PERSON.

I WISH THE SHOE WAS ON THE OTHER FOOT FOR HER.

SOMEONE WE LOVE DEARLY WAS TAKEN AWAY WITHOUT A REASON WHY.

WE WILL STRUGGLE WITH THAT FOREVER.

BUT ATLEAST THEY BOTH ARE SERVING THEIR TIME IN PRISON, AND I HOPE THEIR TIME GOES BY VERY, VERY SLOWLY.

TO WHERE YOU ARE  "BY JOSH GROBAN"

 

WHO CAN SAY FOR CERTAIN, MAYBE YOU'RE STILL HERE.

I FEEL YOU ALL AROUND ME.

YOUR MEMORYS SO CLEAR.

DEEP IN THE STILLNESS, I CAN HEAR YOU SPEAK.

YOUR STILL AN INSPIRATION. CAN IT BE?

THAT YOU ARE MINE, FOREVER LOVE,

AND YOU ARE WATCHING OVER ME FROM UP ABOVE.

FLY ME UP TO WHERE YOU ARE,

BEYOND THE DISTANT STAR, I WISH UPON TONIGHT.

TO SEE YOU SMILE, IF ONLY FOR A WHILE,

TO KNOW YOU'RE THERE.

A BREATH AWAYS NOT FAR TO WHERE YOU ARE.

ARE YOU GENTLY SLEEPING, HERE INSIDE MY DREAM,

AND ISN'T FAITH BELIEVING.

ALL POWER CAN'T BE SEEN.

AS MY HEART HOLDS YOU, JUST ONE BEAT MORE.

I CHERISH ALL YOU GAVE ME EVERYDAY.

CAUSE YOU ARE MY FOREVER LOVE.

WATCHING ME FROM UP ABOVE.

AND I BELIEVE, THAT ANGELS BREATHE

AND THAT LOVE WILL LIVE ON AND NEVER LEAVE.

FLY ME UP TO WHERE YOU ARE,

BEYOND THE DISTANT STAR, I WISH UPON TONIGHT,

TO SEE YOU SMILE, IF ONLY FOR AWHILE,

TO KNOW YOU'RE THERE,

A BREATH AWAYS NOT FAR TO WHERE YOU ARE.

 

My life is so cold without you here
Each day I try not to shed a tear

It seems like just yesterday you left my life
When I first heard the news it cut through me like a knife

I went to my room and sat on the bed
As the words kept running through my head

I kept wondering why God took you away
Each night I kneel down to pray

And ask if I could see you for just one more day
Knowing that you're not here tonight

Makes me wonder if I'll be alright
Each morning I wake up and hope it was a dream

and when I find out your not here
It makes me want to scream

Each day I think of running away
Hoping I can find you some other day

And since you're not here my life is so cold.

MEMORIES DRIFTING TO AND FRO

MOVING THROUGH MY HEAD.

ALL THE TIME I THINK OF YOU

NOW THAT YOU ARE DEAD.

WE DID THIS AND WE DID THAT

ARE ALL THAT I CAN SAY.

NO MATTER SAYING WE WILL DO

SOMETHING ELSE TODAY.

I WRITE YOU LETTERS

ALL UNANSWERED,

YOU CAN NEVER WRITE BACK TO ME

LETTERS BLURRING, JUMBLES TOGETHER

THEY ARE ALL THAT I CAN SEE.

BUT I WILL WRITE,

MY WORDS ARE STILL FLOWING.

TIL I SLEEP BENEATH THE FULL MOON.

AND WHEN THEY STOP, DON'T BE DISHEARTED

I'LL BE WITH YOU SOON.

I WAS ALWAYS MESSIN WITH BRUCE AND THE KIDS, EVERYTIME I WOULD GO SOME WHERE HE WOULD ASK ME WHERE WAS I GOING? I WOULD ALWAYS TELL HIM TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND, AND HE WOULD ALWAYS ASK, WHY DO YOU ALWAYS MESS WITH ME. SO THEN THE KIDS WOULD ASK WHERE I WAS GOING AND I WOULD TELL THEM I WAS GOING TO SEE THEIR DAD, AND THEY WOULD SAY HE IS RIGHT HERE, AND I WOULD SAY NO NO NO I AM GOING TO SEE VIN DIESEL YOUR REAL DAD.

WHEN BRUCE WOULD GO AWAY I WOULD ALWAYS SAY CALL ME BEFORE YOU COME HOME, HE WOULD ASK WHY DO YOU NEED ME TO BRING SOMETHING HOME, AND I WOULD SAY NO I JUST WANT TO MAKE SURE MY BOYFRIEND IS GONE BEFORE YOU GET BACK, AND HE WOULD JUST SAY YEA O.K. WHAT EVER.

SO I CAME HIOME ONE DAY AND BRUCE SAID I REALLY DON'T APPRECIATE YOU HAVEING YOUR BOYFRIEND IN OUR ROOM, AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT. I WENT IN OUR ROOM AND I DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING WRONG IN THERE, NO REASON HE WOULD ACTUALLY THINK I HAD SOMEONE THERE. I WENT BACK AND ASKED HIM WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT AND HE WENT IN THE BEDROOM AND CLOSED THE CLOSET DOOR AND THERE WAS A POSTER OF VIN DIESEL HANGING ON THE BACK OF CLOSET DOOR ( HE HAD WENT OUT AND BOUGHT ME A POSTER OF VIN DIESEL AND HANG IT ON THE DOOR FOR ME) HE SAID HERE YOU CAN LAY IN THE BED AT NIGHT AND LOOK AT YOUR BOYFRIEND EVERYNIGHT.

BRUCE AND I TALKED ON THE PHONE ALL THE TIME. AFTER 17 YEARS YOU WOULD THINK THERE WAS NOT A WHOLE LOT TO TALK ABOUT, BUT WE ALWAYS FOUND SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT, EVEN IF WE CALLED EACH OTHER 10 TIMES A DAY.

BRUCE WOULD ALWAYS ASK WHAT I WAS GONNA DO FOR LUNCH, ALOT OF TIMES IT WOULD BE TO SURPRISE ME. HE WOULD SHOW UP A FEW MINUTES BEFORE MY LUNCH BREAK AND TELL ME HE WAS TAKING ME OUT TO EAT. THAT WAS ALWAYS SO SWEET AND THOUGHTFUL OF HIM.

THERE WERE A FEW TIMES WHEN HE WOULD GET OFF WORK EARLY ON FRIDAYS AND HE WOULD GO TO OUR FAVORITE RESTAURANT (BANGKOK RESTAURANT) AND ORDER LUNCH FOR ME AND ALL THE GIRLS OVER THERE WOULD TELL HIM WHAT A GOOD HUSBAND HE WAS TO ME, BECAUSE HE WAS, AND THAT THERE HUSBANDS HAD NEVER DONE ANYTHING LIKE THAT FOR THEM. ALL THE LADIES THAT WORKED WITH ME ALWAYS SAID THE SAME THING TOO.

I MISS ALL OF THE THINGS HE DID FOR ME AND I WILL NEVER FORGET ALL THOSE THINGS

 

 

 

 

 

 

I REMEMBER, BRUCE HAD A TOOTH THAT WAS HURTING HIM AND SO I TOOK HIM TO THE DENTIST.

 

BRUCE WAS ALWAYS TRYING TO CRACK JOKES AND MAKE PEOPLE SMILE AND LAUGH. SO HE IS MAKEING JOKES ABOUT GETTING HIS TOOTH PULLED (HE DIDN'T THINK THEY WOULD DO ANYTHING THAT DAY) AND LAUGHING AND CARRINH ON WITH THE DENTAL HYGENIST. WELL THE DENTIST TOLD HIM HE WAS GONNA PULL IT OUT THAT DAY AND HE STOPPED LAUGHING ONLY FOR A FEW MINUTES THOUGH. EVEN WHEN THE DENTIST WAS TRYING TO PULL HIS TOOTH AND HIS MOUTH WASN'T NUMB YET, HE WAS STILL TRYING TO MAKE A JOKE OUT OF IT ALL.

 

WHEN THE DOCTOR WAS DONE PULLING HIS TOOTH, HE TOLD THE DENTIST HE WANTED THE TOOTH TO PUT UNDER HIS PILLOW FOR THE TOOTHFAIRY, AND THE DENTIST LOOKED AT BRUCE FUNNY BUT GAVE IT TO US.

 

WHEN WE GOT OUT OF THE DENTIST OFFICE, BRUCE GAVE ME THE TOOTH AND SAID HERE IS SOMETHING TO ALWAYS REMEMBER ME BY. HE WAS ALWAYS BEING SO SILLY.

 

I STILL HAVE BRUCE'S TOOTH PUT UP WITH ALL OF BRANDON & CAMERON'S BABY TEETH

IN YOUR EYES I SAW FOREVER.

I FOUND COMFORT, I FOUND HOPE.

JUST LOOKING IN YOUR EYES

I LEARNED HOW TO COPE.

WHEN I HAD LOST THE PATH

YOUR EYES SHOWED ME THE WAY

IF I WAS SAD OR ANGRY

YOUR EYES WOULD CHASE AWAY THE PAIN.

IN THE DARK CORNERS OF MY MIND

YOUR EYES WERE A BEACON OF LIGHT

EACH TIME I LOOKED INTO YOUR EYES

I DISCOVERED THE STRENGTH TO FIGHT.

NOW YOUR EYES ARE EMPTY

I SCREAM AND HIT THE FLOOR

I CLOSE MY EYES AND LOSE MYSELF

BECAUSE YOUR EYES WON'T OPEN ANYMORE.

YOUR IN THE WIND.

YOUR IN THE AIR.

YOUR EVERYWHERE.

"WITH YOU I'LL ALWAYS BE"

THATS WHAT YOU SAID TO ME,

ONCE UPON A MOONLIT NIGHT.

NOW YOUR GONE, OUT OF SIGHT.

I KNOW YOUR HOME, WHERE ANGELS FLY.

I KNOW YOUR SAFE, AND HAVE NO STRIFE.

DO YOU MISS ME LIKE I MISS YOU?

DO YOU WATCH FROM THE SKY ABOVE ?

AS I SIT HERE AND CRY MY LOVE...

THE NIGHT YOU DIED, I NEVER KNEW

IT WOULD BE THA LAST TIME I'D HEAR

" I LOVE YOU"

I SAID IT ONCE BEFORE I SLEPT.

I SHOULD HAVE SAID ITA MILLION MORE,

BEFORE I WENT TO DREAM.

"BRUCE I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING"

THESE WORDS I STILL WHISPER,

WHEN THE STARS SHINE ABOVE, IT REMINDS ME

OF THE TWINKLE, IN YOUR SWEET EYES....

REMEMBER MY LOVE IS TRUE, AND

I WILL ALWAYS FEEL THE SAME ABOUT YOU........

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I AM POSTING A NEWSPAPER CLIPPING WHERE JULIE, JOSH & JUSTIN PUT A MEMORIAM IN THE COLUMBUS DISPATCH FOR BRUCE, ON THE ANNIVERSARY OF HIS DEATH.

 

 

3 YEARS AGO CAMERON HAD SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE BOTTOM OF HIS FOOT AND IT HURT WHEN HE WOULD WORK OUT AT KARATE SO BRUCE AND I TOOK HIM TO SEE A FOOT DOCTOR. THE DOCTOR SAID THAT HE HAD A PLANTERS WORT ON HIS FOOT, AND WANTED TO CUT IT OUT!!!

 

CAMERON FREAKED OUT WHEN HE TOLD US HE WAS GOING TO CUT IT OUT. SO HE SAID HE WOULD TRY PUTTING SOME ACID ON IT TO SEE IF IT WOULD GO AWAY LIKE THAT. NEEDLESS TO SAY WE HAD TO KEEP GOING BACK EVERY WEEK FOR ABOUT 2 MONTHS, AND KEEP GETTING THE ACID PUT ON IT, I JUST WANTED HIM TO CUT IT OUT BUT CAMERON MADE A DRAWING AND GAVE TO BRUCE, AND HE FELT SORRY FOR CAMERON AND WOULD NOT LET THEM CUT THE WORT OUT.

 

CAMERON'S DRAWING SHOWED HIS FOOT GETTING CUT OFF, AND BRUCE THOUGHT THAT WAS SO FUNNY, HE WOULD NOT LET THEM CUT IT OFF UNTIL THERE WAS NO OTHER CHOICE. SO INSTEAD OF TAKING ABOUT A WEEK TO HEAL AFTER IT GOT CUT OFF. WE HAD TO WAIT ABOUT 2 MONTHS FOR IT TO BE GONE.

 

I AM PUTTING UP A COPY OF CAMERON'S DRAWING.

BRUCE WAS SUCH A GOOD PERSON.. HE NEVER MEET ANYONE THAT HE DIDN'T LIKE. HE HAD SO MANY PEOPLE THAT KNEW HIM AND LIKED HIM...

 

MAYBE THAT IS WHY IT IS SO HARD TO BELIEVE THAT SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENED TO HIM...

 

HE WAS SO FUN TO BE AROUND. ALWAYS LAUGHING AND CRACKIN JOKES. BRUCE JUST HAD THIS CONTAGOUS LAUGH, IF HE WAS LAUGHING YOU COULDN'T HELP BUT LAUGH WITH HIM (EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT HE WAS LAUGHING AT).

 

BRANDON AND CAMERON ARE SO MUCH LIKE HIM IN THAT WAY. ALWAYS LAUGHING AND CRACKIN JOKES, THEY ARE SUCH LIVE WIRES. THEY ARE SO ACTIVE.

 

 

I THINK I ONLY SAW BRUCE MAD A HANDFULL OF TIMES. I SAW WHAT HE DID WHEN HE WAS MAD BUT WE NEVER GOT THAT MAD AT EACH OTHER. WHATEVER WE WERE MAD ABOUT WE SAID WHAT WE HAD TO SAY AND THEN IT WAS OVER AND BEHIND US (WE USUALLY COULDN'T REMEMBER WHAT STARTED THE ARGUMENT).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

SORROW

 

DEATH IS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT WE HAVE NO CONTROL OVER.

NO ONE IS PROMISED A TOMORROW.

LOOK AT YOUR TROUBLES AND DON'T DESPAIR.

WORK OUT THINGS THE BEST YOU CAN WHILE YOU ARE HERE AND THINK ABOUT HOW YOU TREAT OTHERS EVERY WAKING MOMENT.

IF TOMORROW ARRIVES FOR YOU, IT WILL BE A BRIGHTER DAY AND YOU WILL HAVE NO REGRETS.

 

 

 

 

 

I JUST THOUGHT THIS WAS A FUNNY QUOTE AND WANTED TO ADD IT TO BRUCE'S SITE.

 

 

"LIFE IS NOT A JOURNEY TO THE GRAVE WITH THE INTENTION OF ARRIVING WITH A PRETTY AND WELL PRESERVED BODY, BUT RATHER TO SKID IN BROADSIDE, THOROUGHLY USED UP, TOTALLY WORN OUT, AND LOUDLY PROCLAIMING"

"WOW WHAT A RIDE"

THIS POEM IS TO REMIND EVERYONE DON'T TAKE LIFE FOR GRANTED, IT CAN BE SNATCHED AWAY IN A HEART BEAT.  JUST LIKE BRUCE WAS......

 

 

" TOMORROW NEVER COMES "

BY: NORMA CORNETT MAREK

 

IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME, THAT I'D SEE YOU FALL ASLEEP, I WOULD TUCK YOU IN MORE TIGHTLY, AND PRAY THE LORD YOUR SOUL TO KEEP.

 

IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME, THAT I WOULD SEE YOU WALK OUT THE DOOR, I WOULD GIVE YOU A HUG AND A KISS AND CALLED YOU BACK FOR JUST ONE MORE.

 

IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME, I'D HEAR YOUR VOICE LIFTED UP INPRAISE, I WOULD TAPE EACH WORD AND ACTION AND PLAY THEM BACK THROUGHOUT MY DAYS.

 

IF I KNEW IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME, I WOULD SPARE AN EXTRA MINUTE OR TWO TO STOP AND SAY "I LOVE YOU" INSTEAD OF ASSUMING YOU KNOW I DO.

 

SO JUST IN CASE TOMORROW NEVER COMES AND TO DAY IS ALL I GET, I'D LIKE TO SAY HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE WE NEVER WILL FORGET.

 

TOMORROW IS NOT PROMISED TO ANYONE, YOUNG OR OLD ALIKE, AND TODAY MAY BE THE LAST CHANCE YOU GET TO HOLD YOUR LOVED ONE TIGHT.

 

SO IF YOU'RE WAITING FOR TOMORROW, WHY NOT DO IT TODAY? FOR IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES, YOU'LL SURELY REGRET THE DAY THAT YOU DIDN'T TAKE THE EXTRA TIME, FOR A SMILE, A HUG, OR A KISS, AND YOU WERE TOO BUSY TO GRANT SOMEONE WHAT TURNED OUT TO BE THEIR LAST WISH.

 

SO HOLD YOUR LOVED ONES CLOSE TODAY AND WHISPER IN THEIR EAR, TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM VERY MUCH AND YOU'LL ALWAYS HOLD THEM DEAR.

 

TAKE TIME TO SAY "I'M SORRY", "PLEASE FORGIVE ME", "THANK YOU" OR "IT'S O.K.", AND IF TO MORROW NEVER COMES YOU'LL HAVE NO REGRETS ABOUT TODAY.

 

 

I HAVE NO REGRETS BRUCE.  I KNOW WE TOLD EACH OTHER EVERYDAY HOW WE FELT.  AND I STILL FELL THE SAME WAY. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I REMEMBER EVERYTIME WE WOULD ARGUE, IT WAS USUALLY SOMETHING STUPID, BUT WE COULD NEVER STAY MAD AT EACH OTHER. (I DON'T KNOW WHY) I GUESS WE JUST CARED ABOUT EACH OTHER TOO MUCH.

 

WHEN WE WERE MAD AT EACH OTHER EITHER BRUCE WOULD TRY TO MAKE ME LAUGH, OR I WOULD TRY TO MAKE HIM LAUGH, OR WE JUST FORGOT THAT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE MAD AT EACH OTHER.

 

( ITS FUNNY HOW THAT ALWAYS WORKED OUT )

 

THERE WERE THINGS THAT WE SHOULD HAVE STAYED MAD AT EACH OTHER FOR, BUT I'M SO GLAD THAT WE HAD THIS TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP.  I DON'T THINK I COULD HAVE LIVED KNOWING THAT LAST THING WE SAID WAS SOMETHING HURTFULL TO EACH OTHER.

 

I AM THANKFUL THAT YOU DIED KNOWING THAT I LOVE YOU... AND I KNOW YOU LOVED ME TOO.

 

 

" WHAT HURTS THE MOST "

DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT HURTS THE MOST ABOUT HAVING YOU RIPPED FROM MY LIFE ?

IT DOESN'T BOTHER ME WHEN I THINK ABOUT ALL THOSE LONG NIGHTS CUDDLED UP IN YOUR ARMS, OR ALL THE TRIPS WE TOOK TOGETHER.

IT DOESN'T EVEN HURT WHEN I TALK ABOUT ALL THE FUNNY LITTLE THINGS YOU SAID OR DID, OR THE JOKES YOU MADE.

I DON'T EVEN CRY WHEN I LOOK AT THE PICTURES OF YOU, AND THINK ABOUT ALL THE MEMORIES OF US TOGETHER.

WHAT HURTS THE MOST IS WHEN I THINK OF ALL THE MEMORIES THAT WILL BE MISSING YOU IN THEM.

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN.......

" I LOVE YOU    BRUCE"